1 year 9 months and 20 days

1 year 9 months and 20 days ago I met the man of my dreams :)

1 year 9 months and 20 days ago I met the 1 person that can wake me at all hours of the night and still be alive :)

1 year 9 months and 20 days ago I realized that sleeping through the night was a thing of the past. (Christopher slept through the night at 8 weeks, but a mommy doesn't do that again until.... well I don't know yet)

1 year 9 months and 20 days ago I met the 1 person that can make me smile, laugh and feel giddy every time I see him

1 year 9 months and 20 days ago I found out what it was like to love someone more than you love your husband and yourself combined.

1 year 9 months and 20 days ago I gave birth to a baby that looked so much like my husband it was freaky

1 year 9 months and 20 days ago I found out what it was like to be in more pain than 1 person could imagine and be willing to do it all over again

1 year 9 months and 20 days ago I became a MOMMY!

I look at this little boy who is so adventurous and so fun to be around and wonder what I did before him. I know I thought I was busy and I know I thought I never had enough time and yet now I fit so much more into everyday.

Memorial Day weekend was no exception.

Friday we had a playdate, we went swimming, we had dinner at the guys house, I went food shopping and to kohls.

Saturday we went to the Jones Beach Airshow all day and then Chris and I went out at night

Sunday we went to Grandma's house, to a BBQ for Vanessa (my niece)and then I had company

Monday we went to a parade, had a BBQ here and then I went to a funeral at night. I don't think I sat the entire weekend. I don't think the TV went on once the whole weekend. We were never home and when we were we went outside to play. It was almost the perfect weekend. I do wish Chris was home with us to enjoy some of it. The fact that he wasn't means that business was good but we did miss him.

Christopher, like most little boys, loves plane, trains and automobiles. If it moves fast he LOVES it.

He got so excited every time a plane flew over us, that was of course until the BIG BOYS came out. The noise from those freakin planes made the beach shake. His heart was beating so fast. That's when we went up to the board walk for some ice cream.

Happy Mommy's Day!

Mother's Day was perfect. Yup, perfect. It was a beautiful day. Christopher and I (along with my sister and her family and a friend and her family oh, and of course my Mom, duh it was Mother's Day) went to Central Park. I have lived in NY my whole life and this was my first trip to the Central Park Zoo. How embarrassing is that.

Well, now that I have done it once I think I can manage it again. Christopher and I will be heading back sooner than later.

Chris got me the most beautiful card. It basically was a response to my anniversary post. It was very sweet and actually made me cry. Christopher got me a hot stone massage and an adorable card. He also said Happy Mommy's Day which of course made my day. We ended up at my in laws for a bbq. Chris met us there and like I said it was just a perfect day.

Our 5 year anniversary was very nice. We met for our massages and that was great and then when I got home I received 5 dozen roses. Do you have any idea how many roses that is? Well lets just say I had roses in 3 rooms of my house, 1 vase had 3 dozen and then 2 had a dozen each. We went to dinner that night and just had a great time.

I haven't mentioned it before but I am trying to lose weight. I am doing weight watchers, but this week (actually 11 days) I am trying a cleanse. Basically, I drink a shake, eat lunch and then have another shake on days 1, 2, 5, 6, 7, 8 and 9 and then on days 3 and 4 and 10 and 11 you cleanse NO MEALS. I am at the end of day 3. So except for the 4 snacks you can have I have not eaten all day. Tomorrow is going to be hard. I have lost 6lbs already though (since I started the cleanse) I have lost a total of 40lbs since I started ww. I have alot more to go but hey 40lbs is a great start.

5 Years and we NEVER had a fight

Why does everyone say that?

Are there any couples in the entire world that have been married for 5 years that have not had a fight of some kind? I know some people don't really fight with their partners but come on you can not agree with someone ALL THE TIME. Thats just crazy.

Chris and I will be married 5 years on Friday.

Is marriage what I thought it would be?

NOPE!

(I am supposed to say it is better, right?) Well this is my blog and I don't have to lie and say that. Marriage is not what I thought and no it is not better than I thought. Maybe thats because right now I see Chris a total of 7 hours a week (unless it rains and then we are both so grumpy that we should probably not see each other), maybe it is because we are both so busy with our lives (work, the house and of course Christopher) that our marriage is on hold. Is this fair? No.

I am grateful for the back bone of our marriage, the foundation that it was built on and the Love I know we share. If these things were not as stable as they were before the car wash I don't think we would be married today. Chris works his butt off and he is very rarely around to spend time with us. When he is here he plays with Christopher and then eats dinner and goes to sleep. Where do I fit in?

Do I love Chris the same as I did 5 years ago?

Not the same, thats for sure. I do love him MORE. I love Chris for so many different reasons, reasons I could not have known about 5 years ago. I love him because no matter how tired he is, no matter how much he wants to come home and sit down, when he walks in that door he has more energy than you can imagine. He will NEVER tell Christopher he can't play, he can't dance with him, he can't take him outside or downstairs because he is tired. He never stays in bed when he has a day off, he is up and playing with Christopher from the moment Christopher yells DADDY from his crib. I LOVE that about him. I love that when I am having a really bad day and I am overwhelmed by everything I have to get done he says something or does something to make me feel better. I love that when he is home alone I can guarantee the house has been straightened out from top to bottom. He does not just veg out and watch TV until he hears the car pull up. I love that I know in my heart that I am the only woman that Chris would want to be with.

This post may sound negative, it is not meant to be that way. I love Chris and I love being married to him. But, before I got married I had this vision of what it would be like. I thought it would be romance all the time and I don't know just fairy tale like and that is of course not the case nor should it be. That is not real life. I would not trade any of our not so fairy tale like days for anything. What does not kill you only makes you stronger, right?